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Confessions Of An Alcoholic

Confessions of an alcoholic

When I Drank

  1. I would spend a lot of money
  2. I would get carried away and my judgement would fail me
  3. I would do foolish things
  4. I would directly affect my physical well being by drinking alcohol
  5. I would waste that time
  6. I would not deal with what was making me unhappy
  7. I would not deal with my failing marriage
  8. I would be tired
  9. I would remain numb
  10. I would work badly
  11. I would take time off work
  12. I would miss opportunities to really advance my career
  13. I would damage my professional reputation
  14. I would be unreliable
  15. I would be dishonest
  16. I would treat people close to me badly
  17. I would fail to do the best for the people who relied on me
  18. I wouldn’t think clearly
  19. I would fail to understand myself and the world around me
  20. I would get paranoid
  21. I would get very depressed in the mornings after drinking and want to cry
  22. I would be emotionally volatile
  23. I would think in mind numbing loops
  24. Situations started to arise which would increasingly lead to people – including my children – being badly hurt
  25. My view of myself and of the world never changed – I would get stuck
  26. I would exercise less
  27. I would eat badly
  28. I would undermine my ability to commit to anything
  29. I wouldn’t stop because I thought I would get bored
  30. I wouldn’t stop because reality was painful
  31. I wouldn’t stop because I thought people would think I was dull
  32. I wouldn’t stop because I was a functional alcoholic: I could do enough to convince myself I didn’t have a problem – but slowly over time everything, in fact, slowly turned to shit, because more often than not, I drank
  33. I drank maybe just a glass or two one day, then a bottle another day, then massive binges the next day, but most days, just enough to self medicate most of the time
  34. And I would get carried away and not come home because home had turned to shit
  35. And my children would see that most days I drank
  36. And it worried them – it slowly but surely had a hand in shaping their personalities
  37. And no-one could tell me. When anyone told me, I ignored them.
  38. It was only with that car crash, did I realise that I had slowly drifted through an alcoholic, self-medicating haze, toward this point, was by now repeatedly damaging people, my marriage, myself and my career, and that I decided I was ready to stop and I had to stop.
  39. It’s early days but already I feel healthier, more optimistic, have more energy, I’m thinking with enthusiasm and inventiveness, I feel more honest, I feel less depressed, I’m feeling less scared and uncertain, I’m feeling more in charge, more responsible for my children, and I’m not sneaking around anymore.


I know what I have to deal with. And I know what I have to do.

Alix Needham

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